It’s been a while, but in light of recent events I decided to record another cover 🙂
Captain – Hillsong United (Cover)
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This song was inspired from the verses Proverbs 3:5-6 where God tells us, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
Currently, I’m in a pretty anxious stage of my life where there are many unanswered questions. Trying to figure out my future and plans for next year has started to become very pressuring, and I usually find myself responding with worry and doubt. Maybe it’s the fact that I recently entered my late 20’s, or maybe it’s from me making comparisons with my life to the lives of the friends and colleagues around me. Whatever the case is, it’s clear that I’m dissatisfied with where I am, and all I want is some sort of visible sign that my life is moving forward. I’ve been spending a lot of time in prayer and the Word, but have many times felt discouraged because none of it seemed to be giving me answers.
But even in the midst of my impatience through this waiting, God has been working and teaching me again how to trust. I’ve been a Christian basically all my life, but it turned out that the very solution to this issue was to return to step 1: having faith in the one who died for me, picking up my cross daily, and completely surrendering my life to him. I revisited the idea of what it really means to surrender, being reminded that it is nothing about my plans or my timing, but all and only about his.
And as I am fighting to surrender, I’m also learning more and more that it is never a self-sacrifice. When I give my life to Christ, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. God is always, always working for the sake of my good, and nothing out of the love in his character will change that. Surrendering to him is not just something I should do, but something that is absolutely worth doing. As I continue to go through “uncharted waters,” I pray that I will keep learning how to die to myself and fully trust in the one who makes all things beautiful in his time.
“All my allegiance is rightfully yours.”